Sunday, March 30, 2008

Sunday And All Is Quiet

The most important part on my "to-do" list was going up to see my sister. As I have stated in previous posts, she has been very sick since a stent was put in from her kidney to her bladder. She has been suffering for almost a month now. I've been going up each weekend to help her & to spend time with her. Today, however, I didn't go up because she could not bring herself to get out of bed & really wasn't up for company. She didn't tell me not to come up, but I could tell by the pain in her voice that she really needed to be in bed. See, I could never just go up there & visit her while she is in bed recuperating. The natural hostess in her needs to get up, get me something to drink, sit up & talk etc. This is how she has always been. She has been the strong one in the family, the rock since our Mom passed away 17yrs ago. This has really hit her and hit her hard. She is not used to being taken care of or even helped in the slightest way. We all go to her. Plus, she suffers from depression so this is making it alot worse. I feel completely helpless. I feel like there is nothing I can do for her. I pray for her, I cry for her, I worry for her, I help her when she will let me. The only thing I cannot do is take away her pain...and for that I feel helpless.

So it turns out, I only got a few things accomplished on my "to-do" list. I did update my blog (ok, right now I am). I also did wrap my husband's birthday gifts. I even wrote out the cards too. I also slept late. Well on Saturday I did. Today I was up & showered by 8am in hopes of visiting my sister. I did not clean the apartment. The only bit of cleaning I did was wash dishes. Other than that, I really was a bum. I guess I just needed to just "be". You ever get those kind of weekends. I just wanted to veg like I said.

We did wind up meeting my best friend for dinner tonight at Bennigans. We had a very nice time. We wound up getting a terrific waiter who just had such a nice personality. We are frequent diners there & always sit with the same waiter. Well he was off & we sat with a new guy. So now we have a "back-up" guy when our regular waiter isn't there. After dinner we decided to go back to Dairy Queen for dessert. It was 50 degrees tonight so it was much better than the late 30s the last time we went. LOL! We hung out in the parking lot & ate our Blizzards (yummy!) until it was time to go. We all wanted to be home before Family Guy started.

So as you can see, I had a quiet weekend. Now it is back to work tomorrow & back to the grind. I hope you all enjoyed your weekend.

1 comment:

2nd Cup of Coffee said...

Sorry to hear your sister is suffering. I have a close friend going through something similar now, too. It's such a helpless feeling when you care so much. But your sister is blessed to have your loving her and understanding her.